on suicide

many times thoughout my life, I've been accused of being overly despondent, overly critical, pessimistic, a contrarian, a tryhard, whatever.

all I can say is this: if you are living in this world where the way of life for millions is controlled by deeply deranged and immoral people, where the powerless and penniless suffer constantly, where breaking yourself out of that cycle means debasing yourself for capitalists, where there is no true meaning, no satisfaction, no real joy to be found, pushing yourself away from depression and its conclusion, suicide, requires one of extreme delusion, extreme lack of empathy, or extreme effort.

I hope and pray every day that my feet don't give out from under me.